ocdestroyed:

I’ve already changed my clothes three times and showered even though I’ll have to shower again later.

I feel your pain; I’m losing today too.

The nicest way of saying “you’re not good enough; go away.”

thediamondsinlucyssky:

no no no no no 
no no no no no no no
no no no no no

To tell the difference between guilt, conviction, gratitude, or any other emotion and obsessive thought cycles. I’ve made so many mistakes, sinned so much, that my brain just has this giant pool of negative information that it can pull from and analyze. As soon as I feel forgiven for one thing, or quit worrying about something, my brain immediately jumps to the next, so that I can NEVER be happy, and that I can NEVER be finished saying sorry. It never ends.

What’s worse is that all of my compulsions are based on truth. I do need to pray about these things, but after I pray for them, I have to repeat the prayer. I almost wish that I could receive physical pain in place of my compulsions, because this psychological distress is too much to bear.

I feel like I’m going to explode, and, at the same time, I feel like I’m going to curl into a ball and die.